Ramblings...

At 26, I am still figuring out my faith and what it means to me. Sometimes I am embarrassed to call myself a christian. I don't want to be associated with the majority of people who call themselves Christians in the world today. Yes, I believe in God, yes I believe in Jesus and that he died for my sins. I am not embarrassed of that. But I think Christians have become well known for their extreme judgementalism and close-minded ignorance. I don't want to be known for George Bush's spilling of thousands of innocent people's blood, Joel Osteen lining his pockets in the name of God, the mega churches with starbucks, Terry Jones threatening to burn the Koran on 9/11, the person holding that sign that says "God hates fags" or  "Abortion is homicide".

I do not believe that God put me here on this earth to be the decider of whether or not someone else is living their life the way they should be or not. God created all sin equal and maybe if I had NO sin in my own life, then I could have a say in someone else's life. Until then, I consider myself just as guilty as the person I may be judging and I'm going to keep pulling the forests of logs out of my own eyes. Don't get me wrong, I think if you really care about your friends and you see them harming themselves, you should take action to help them, but not through words of condemnation. Through ACTIONS of LOVE and by EXAMPLE!

 I just get so sad to think that we lose faith in other's so easily, that we are so quick to make a judgement about them for their mistakes. No matter what someone does, we do not know what goes through their head in the still of the night when it's just them and their thoughts. That, only God knows. I think we may be surprised when we get to heaven and see who is there with us. I know the bible says that the only way to heaven is through Christ, but I struggle to believe that someone in Bangladesh, Tibet, Syria, Fiji, etc. that devotes their entire life to the creator, and doing good, but didn't call him by the name Jesus wouldn't be accepted with open arms at the gates of heaven. I don't know much, but I really feel that the God I know would accept them.

I DO know that God is so much bigger than us and our labels and compartments. And that gives me so much hope. That's all for tonight...

Keeper Of The Birds

I remember being six or seven and lying on the floor of the sun room of our house on Ball Street letting the beams of sunlight warm my face. I would lay silently, waiting patiently for the moment! The moment when I would hear the thud against the large bay windows my Dad had put in a few years earlier. I remember running outside as fast as my bare feet would take me to find the small lifeless body of a bird laying there. Finding that it was beyond saving, I was ready to perform my duty and give it the burial that I felt, in my seven year old head, it deserved. I would dig deep in the loose soil of our garden with my hands and lay it's fragile little body in the grave, then cover it up leaving one wing protruding from the earth, almost as a salute. I would stand and stare at it for a while wondering what it's little bird life was like. Did it have a bird mommy or daddy or a bird husband that was waiting anxiously for it's return home? I would conclude the burial with the sprinkling of flower petals around the wing and then return to my spot in the sun and wait for the next unknowing victim.

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Better Half

Missing Him...

There's one in all of us.

Trevor was in town for a day and a half this weekend as Eisley was playing at The Vic on Friday night. It was great to see him but bittersweet at the same time knowing that he was only going to be leaving again. But nonetheless, we enjoyed our time together and then parted ways early this morning. We went to the movies and saw Where The Wild Things Are. It was amazing! Though, I would say not geared towards children as you may assume. It made me laugh watching these huge puppet-like creatures being so moody. It was sad, beautiful, dreamy, thoughtful, imaginative, fun, and everything all mushed up into one! Just go see it and you'll find out for yourself! So, it was a really good weekend... but I don't feel ready to go back to school tomorrow. But I guess getting another day under my belt means I'm one more day closer to seeing Trev again. So I guess it's not such a bad thing after all. Ok, that's all for now people.

It's Falling.

So here is the coat that I ended up getting instead! We were on our way to Target to pick up the one I thought I wanted and I spotted THIS at another store for $30!! I was super excited! It has been keeping me nice and toasty while Trevor is gone. Has been on tour with Eisley now for 2 weeks and it's gone by so fast. I have been so busy helping my dear friends Kyle & Linn with their wedding and having midterms at the same time. I'm really hoping that the next 5 weeks go just as quickly. Wish me luck!

Husbandless

Well...my husband is leaving me again to persue his "dreams"(how rude of him;). He is departing on Monday to go on a 2 week Wiitala Brothers tour, coming home for 2 days and then flying out to Texas to start practice dates with Eisley for their 6 week long tour. He will arrive home the day before Thanksgiving. I am hoping that this time will be a little easier for me to handle since I am working and going to school 12 hrs a day. That should be enough to keep my mind busy.
On a side note, I think I will be needing this coat to keep me warm since Trev won't be able to while he's gone. It's a lot cuter in person.. I will post a photo when it's in my grip! I just hope that they don't stop stocking it at Target before I have the money. Nothing like a cute coat, boots and a hat for when that fall weather hits!