Things I Love

The Price of Independence

I've been wondering a lot lately what the next step of my life is going to be. For the past 5 years I have been living in an intentional community in the inner city of Chicago. I have enjoyed it so much and been blessed enough to have met my husband here. I know God is stirring something inside of both of us that will soon come to the surface. A move? but where? stay in the city? move to Canada? go travel the world for a few years?... I don't know. I'm planning on enrolling in a community college down the street this fall for their cosmetology program. I am confident that I will excel in that program, but a little scared about the placement test that the school requires you to take. Considering that I was homeschooled and had to be my own teacher at times. If I can just make it through that, I know that I will do well in my classes. The reason why I am doing this is to get my hairdressing license, and I can't do that without the schooling. Jpusa seems to be the best place to be to make it all happen. No rent, no car payments, and a very workable schedule.
The idea of moving does scare me a little. Neither me or my husband have ever had to live on our own. I moved to Chicago right out of my parents house and Trevor has lived in the community since his Mom moved there back in the 80's. We know that we are blessed by being able to have the time to do the things that we love and hang out with family and friends and not have to struggle worrying about whether or not we are going to be able to make ends meet. But there is that part of us that is longing to know that we can make it on our own.. that we can live life on our own terms and have that sense of pride.
Timing is such a hard thing to determine! Should we wait until I'm done school to move? Until Trevor and Christopher really know where their music is heading? When do we want to start a family? I don't want to be in retirement when my children are graduating.
Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself... I DO want to enjoy today. I want to make each day count and not look back 5 years from now and say, where did it go? So, i think it is good to plan and look at life with a sense of wonder... but not to fret about the future. I know God has a great plan for our life and that he will open up the right doors when the timing is right.

Amour Sincere

Married Life, aaahhh.. it's good. Here are some reasons why I think so...
Having someone who knows how to make me laugh when I'm grouchy.
Someone to wake up with every morning.
Someone to hug me when I'm sad.
Having someone that understands me the way no one else could.
Someone that I trust...REALLY.
Someone that makes me ride roller coasters.
Having someone that thinks I'm beautiful even when I feel fat and ugly.
I guess I'm pretty lucky, huh...